More Than a Number

I’m grateful for the continued advancements in diabetes technology and treatment strategies. Things have come a long way in my 31 years as a type I diabetic.

Last week, I met with my endocrinologist (diabetes doctor) and learned my A1C was down to 6.2. An A1C depicts your average blood sugar for a three-month period. The test is by no means full proof, but does provide insight for patients and care teams. The goal is to have an A1C around 6.5 to reduce chances of diabetes related complications.

I used to stress out about my A1C to the point that I correlated blood sugar readings to my standing as a person.

High blood sugar? I’m a bad person.

Low blood sugar? I’m a bad person.

It took me until my late 30’s and a lot of work with a counselor to remove the constant correlation of self-worth to my blood sugar readings. I still have my days, but I take great care of myself and work hard to feel as good as possible for myself and my family.

While technology has improved, you still need to do the work to manage blood sugar. This is especially true for me having diabetes on top of colitis and sarcoidosis. My body throws constant curves, which impacts my ability to control blood sugar and overall diabetes management.

I definitely get frustrated at times when my diabetes care may not be where I’d like it to be.

Blood sugar readings do not determine my self worth.